I feel like there should be a drumroll at the beginning of this post...
*insert drumroll here*
I feel SOOOO much better!!!
Okay, so obviously all of my symptoms didn't disappear. And I have been dealing with mild anxiety for pretty much my whole life. But since my surgery I have felt like myself again! No more hypersensitivity to being touched, no more panic attacks caused by just thinking about something, I've been able to focus better, and enjoy life more!
*sigh*
Seriously guys, that surgery was a game changer for me.
And perfect timing too, because this week Aaron left for his deployment. 😢
Can I just ask a general question? How much crying is too much crying? And what would be too little? Because I gotta be honest, I am not much of a cryer. (I mean, other than the last two years in the midst of my emotional roller coaster of a life...) Seriously, I rarely cry. And usually it's because I'm mad, not sad.
So Aaron left on Monday, and we got to go with him to the gate at the airport, and the kids got to stay and watch his plane leave...and he's giving us all hugs. And he's crying, and the girls are crying, and William thinks it's awesome that he gets to see an airplane...and I'm not crying, and I feel like a total douche bag for not crying when my husband is leaving for 6 months!!! Is that weird?
I mean, don't get me wrong, I am sad that he's gone, and I absolutely miss him! And I can't wait until he is home...but I don't cry...
I dunno. How about you guys? What do you think? Do you think you cry an appropriate amount? Am I just showing my anxiety for completely overthinking whether or not I should be crying more?😂
It may not hit you about the deployment for weeks. It's like being numb. When my son left on his mission I didn't cry until one day when it got me that I would not see him for two years. It's a defense mechanism, or you would cry all the time. Thanks for sharing your metal allergy journey. One of my daughter's is allergic to metal, she may need to be warned later on in her life.
ReplyDeleteI never cried when Jack left for long deployments, but I’ve never been much of a crier.
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